It's NOT ENOUGH

I realize that "just good enough" is NOT ENOUGH.

for YEARS now, I've been doing JUST enough to get by. And unfortunately JUST ENOUGH TO GET BY for me is what some people work HARD for-a decent GPA, a decent check-just DECENT stuff. I don't even have to try hard to get Bs, or other things that ppl half kill themselves for.

But I'm ashamed of that. I'm ashamed that I don't push harder. I'm ashamed that I don't give things my ALL. The things that I SHOULD give my all, I give JUST ENOUGH. I give God JUST enough of my time (or not enough at all), JUST enough in my offerings & tithe, JUST ENOUGH in my studies. But it's NOT enough.

God has given me SO much in talents and gifts and abilities. And what have I done? I've been wasteful. I've been hoarding it. Waiting for the right time.

I've had to wake myself up and say NOW is the RIGHT TIME! I've had to tell myself "Dei, STOP waiting for the RIGHT TIME. You have SOOOOO much within you, more than you even REALIZE. But you choose to be SELFISH."

What my pastor says is right, everything in life is a CHOICE. You CHOOSE to do right. You CHOOSE to pray (or not to pray), you CHOOSE to get on FB FIRST in the morning or after work instead of seeking HIM first! You have priorities ALL mixed up, for WHAT?
Are any of these things honestly helping you get to where you want to go?

Yes some of these things are GREAT tools for witnessing, for networking, for making friends, etc. But are we really pursuing the RIGHT THINGS?

My pastor is teaching on discipline and I used all kinds of excuses not to get disciplined-the main one? I'm not good at discipline.

Then I had to stop myself? Wait, Dei, are you serious??? Is that the BEST reason you have?

Nobody is GOOD at discipline. They have to WORK at it. You're just LAZY. Point blank period.

It's why I cannot write the book I've been trying to write for YEARS. It's why I cannot do the things I've wanted to do...because I'm lazy. Because I QUIT when it got hard. Because I expected it to be like the things I did growing up, where I didn't have to try hard because things came natural. I've actually been living BELOW my means for quite some time now but since I was content to be averagely above average (I know thats not a word lol), it's GOOD ENOUGH for me. Well guess what? it's NOT ENOUGH.

There's SOOOO much that GOD wants to pull out of me. I keep fighting it, keep resisting it. Keep making all kinds of excuses. But until I CHOOSE to become DISCIPLINED, I will continue to go around in circles, looking for satisfaction in all the WRONG places.

I'm posting this because I know some of my close friends will keep me ACCOUNTABLE when I want to QUIT. When I want to do "just enough" they will push me to keep going, to be BETTER.

God has placed too much in me to be SELFISH, be LAZY and say "okay that's enough." No, it's NOT ENOUGH, and I certainly don't decide that-GOD does. I dont hear Him say that too often when it comes to an individual's effort. Everytime I've seen people put out a certain amount of effort, He gives them MORE and therefore requires MORE.

Well, staying in one place is NOT an OPTION. I know some of you keep thinking that "if I don't do anything, God will not give me more, so I'll be off the hook." WRONG!
God will not only stop giving, but take away and give to someone who is doing something with what He has given them. Not only will you end up missing out, but the WORLD misses out. The world only gets one YOU. God has graced YOU to do something the way NOBODY ELSE CAN! So even if he takes from you to give someone else, YOU JUST LOST, and so did the WORLD. How selfish?

We have NO MORE EXCUSES not to push harder. If we push past the lazy feelings and selfishness, go BEYOND ourselves, God will make carry us the rest of the way! God is bigger than our problems, our situations, and He has GREAT things in store for us, but we gotta realize that our "just enough to get by" is NOT ENOUGH. He has greater FOR us, so He requires greater FROM us!